My Little Angels

Two-Fucking-Zero

2012-01-26T11:31:00.000+08:00

Have not been blogging for quite awhile.

Cny is here & my birthday has just passed.

I'm 20. Yea, 2-fucking-0

I feel old. No, actually I still feel pretty young and lively.

I thought I would wake up the next day and wham!

Feel old, but well no, it didn't happen.

Guess that's just how life works.

It just happens.. You grow old without ever realizing it.

One day, I'll look into the mirror and see an old lady looking back at me.

Fuck.

Growing old aside, life has been pretty good.

Got accepted into Intercontinental Hotel for my attachment in March too!

Happy max max I swear.

The boyfriend got a job 2 weeks after his ORD and is already almost a month into his job.

That means I can shake leg soon.

Don't have to struggle and work so hard anymore. Yay!

Too many good things happening to me, please just let them last.

I'll be good, I promise.

Fingers interlocked.

Pretty angry girl

2011-12-15T15:10:00.001+08:00

I realised I've been pretty angst recently.

Prolly because it was that time of the month and subsequently, I fell sick.

Really short-tempered and easily agitated.

And also very demanding towards the boyfriend.

Kinda feel bad when I pick a fight with him for no apparent reason when I'm moody.

But I don't know why I can't seem to control my emotions.

Need to give myself a tight slap.

How can I be so mean to someone so dear?

Hate myself for being such a bitch.

Hate how I crave for so much attention from one person.

Hate it when I get emotional like a little girl because I can't get what I want.

Love how you love me so much

Phuuuuu-ket Island

2011-11-09T22:45:00.000+08:00

On the way to the airport

In the hotel room

Along Bangla Rd

The tiger and I

Patong Beach

On the way to Jungceylon

We are on...........

An elephant!

And then there's the dinosaur

And the little girl w huge ass boobs

Went up to see the big Buddha

This was at Karon Beach

Polka dots raincoat!

Bf got the normal boring looking one

Strolling strolling strolling..

Back in Phuket International Airport

Love holidays with the people I love.

Someone like you

2011-10-24T04:14:00.002+08:00

Was just browsing through the net when I came across this..

Shitty things women tend to do (From Holly Jean's blog), and found it really true.

*Hint hint* -- to the bf, haha!

1. Turn Up Late

The reality is.. some girls are never on time. And if she's one of those, then it will never change. Try telling her a meeting/pick up time that's 30 minutes earlier than needed... so there's a buffer.

2. Have Selective Memories

Sometimes we can't remember what we had for lunch today, or the fact that we already have 3 similar black dresses in our wardrobe... but we can recall exactly what you said 2weeks, 3days and 6 hours ago... if we need to bring it up during an argument. We can also remember every single time you went out without us, and every single promise you have broken. We're mentally advanced like that.. don't fault us on our super mental recall abilities. (Instead of complaining about women not letting matters rest, men should hone their recall skills so they won't bloody forget their own words!)

3. Become Needy

We get attached quite easily. We want cuddles, we want you to talk to us, and reassure us. Women tend to become insecure when they fall in love. If we're independent, and don't give a hoot about where you are or what you're up to... that means we're not really that in to you.

4. Keep Tabs On Your Rubber Necking

We have excellent peripheral vision. Yes, everytime a passing girl catches your eye, and you (try to discreetly) turn back to have a better look at her... we notice. Sometimes, we will ask you what's wrong? Or what were you looking at? or Do you know her? But most times, we will pretend not to notice. But we do keep tabs. Fuck you.

5. Whine

Women whine about work, being fat, blisters, bad hair, being fat, food, nails, the weather... have I mentioned being fat? Things that guys don't even think about can be big problems to a woman. It's just the way we operate... we whine to get things out of our system. We don't expect you to fix anything, we just want you to listen. Tomorrow, it will be exactly the same. And that's okay.

6. ALWAYS in Competition

Women like to compare, and would prefer to come out with the winning hand... all the time. We don't like it if someone else's boyfriend/husband is better than ours, or if her relationship is better than ours. The majority of us look at pictures of Kate and Prince William and feel life is unfair *grunts and stomps hooves*.

7. Don't Speak Our Minds

If something is upsetting us, we will say NOTHING is wrong. You need to get with the programme, and realise that something is really wrong... you can usually tell by the way we are acting. We will either get withdrawn or suddenly go quiet. You're in trouble. Think back to what dumbass thing you just said or did... and fix the situation!

8. Want to be Princesses

Some of us are outright demanding... but the majority of us don't verbalise it. All women want to be treated like Princesses (not necessarily in terms of money but at least in thought and effort). Don't know why.. but we kinda think it's our birth right that men should cater to our needs and wants. Of course you can choose to be the sort of guy who doesn't give a shit about this... but you will eventually lose us to the knight in shining armour.

9. Fish For Compliments

We want men to be attracted to us, and to show it. We want you to tell us we look great in our new dress, or how tasty the meal we cooked is, or even that you love the way we smile. We have egos too. And we need you to stroke it sometimes.

10. Possessive Bitchiness

They say hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. So true. Women get bitchy when other women encroach into their territory. You are our man. We won't stand for other women flirting with you. You should NEVER flirt back. When we are on a bitch rant... your job is to keep calm and shut up. You can try to calm us down. BUT NEVER EVER side with the other woman. No matter what.

You can count on me like 1,2,3.. I'll be there

This love

2011-10-18T14:12:00.002+08:00

Those little moments.

Those little kisses.

They never fail to make my heart skip a little more than usual.

I love those times spent with you

Acceptance

2011-10-07T13:02:00.000+08:00

I smoke and drink.

I've got piercings and tattoos.

I laugh an extremely loud laugh and I cry, a lot.

But I've got a boyfriend who says I'm beautiful.

And that's all that matters.

Just the way, we are

For the rest of our lives

2011-10-04T07:21:00.001+08:00

I wanna grow old with you

Stronger than ever.

2011-10-03T02:41:00.002+08:00

Don't balloons make you feel a little happy-high, like a kid all over again?

I miss feeling like a little girl, when all it took was a few candies to make me smile.

Anyway, school's starting in a week.

How nice.

Don't you ever, ever let go of me..

But I'm never gonna let you down

2011-09-30T07:24:00.002+08:00

Thanks for being everything I could ever ask for, and more

I'm just one of those girls too

2011-09-18T06:38:00.002+08:00

Am I still your princess?

Just a kiss goodnight

2011-09-15T00:32:00.001+08:00

I miss those courting days, when you'll pick me up when we have a date. And send me back home afterwards.

Peck me on the cheek, and whisper in my ear that you love me and you'll never leave me.

Guess, this is how things work. After time, we get so used to each other that we forget to do special little things for one another. And we forget to express the love that's kept in our hearts.

Nothing changed, except time.

A day, away

2011-09-12T05:38:00.002+08:00

Got a new job @ Princep street in a pub.
Lovedrunk, live bands on Tuesdays to Fridays which happens to be the days I'm working.
So my dear friends, please pop by and have a drink or two with me!

I'm really living the life now. Sleep in the day, head out to work at night..
What can be better than not having to face the sun?

On a side note, I'm counting happily down to Bangkok in less than 2 months!
Can't wait. I really can't wait.
Need a break from all this. Need some awesome Thai tom yum soup and phad thai..
And cheap booze, duty free cigarettes.

Feels like heaven just thinking of it.
Alright now. Don't forget to come down to Lovedrunk ya? Xoxo.

I'll keep holding on..

Pretty little thing called Love

2011-08-24T19:40:00.001+08:00

Alright, exam week now.
Super drained of energy because of work.
Late nights ain't doing me any good.

Thank god tmr's paper is in the afternoon.
Or else I would die.
2 down, 3 more to go.
Just need to get tmr's management accounting done..
The rest would be a breeze.

Need my holiday now. Can't wait any longer.
I wanna go for massages and shopping sprees with baby. Helppppppp!

Can't wait to spend forever in your arms.

Little heart-shaped polka dots

2011-08-11T14:28:00.006+08:00

Finally, its the last week of school. Last 2 days in fact.

Mad happy. I need to get out of here fast.

So sick and tired of this stupid retarded schoooooool.

Hurry hurry holiday please.

I wanna go back to Bangkok and enjoy life.

I wanna go there and spend money like a princess.

I don't wanna be stuck here in this placeeee.

On a positive note, I'm meeting my darlings next week.

Ex-classmates from E55M for a class BBQ

And the lovely girls for dinner to celebrate Alun's birthday.

Its the 3rd birthday we are celebrating for her already man.

So cliched but yea, how time flies...

For now, I just can't wait to see everyone again~

I will always love you, I will always stay true.

Forever and ever.

2011-08-08T02:55:00.003+08:00

Show me.

If I were to die tomorrow, would you walk with me down the aisle today?

Always always always.

2011-08-02T10:58:00.002+08:00

Right next to you is where I wanna be.

Today, tomorrow.... Until forever comes.

The first person I wanna see each morning, is you

That warm fuzzy feeling

2011-07-26T14:44:00.002+08:00

Those random kisses from nowhere.

I love the way this feels.

One of those bad days

2011-07-22T01:34:00.002+08:00

What have I done, I wish I could run

Away from this ship, going under..

What can I do when my good isn't good enough

And all that I touch tumbles down?

My best intentions keep making a mess of things

I just wanna fix it somehow

But how many times will it take for me, to get it right.....

How many times will it take for us, to get it right?

I've found you.

2011-07-19T15:11:00.002+08:00

My days are finally getting better.

But as things always are, nothing will really be balanced.

Everything is good, my health is bad.

Headaches, migraines, dizziness and every other thing.

Makes me feel like a sick old lady.

I just wanna lay in bed and be pampered.

Thank you for loving me no matter what

Waking up with you by my side

2011-07-17T06:32:00.003+08:00

So bloody in love with you.

There will always be a rainbow after the rain

2011-07-11T14:06:00.002+08:00

There is only so many things that can go wrong in a day.

And after all that can go wrong has gone wrong, something right would happen.

One good thing leads to another, which means that after something right has happened..

All other things would start to go the right way too.

Back in the right direction with love

A walk to be remembered, down the aisle

2011-07-06T14:59:00.006+08:00

Uncle Justin's wedding is tomorrow evening.

And I'm feeling really happy and excited for him and Auntie Judy.

The both of them are so loving and its a blessing to be able to witness a love so true.

Can't wait to see my handsome uncle and his beautiful bride tomorrow.

I wish you both, everlasting love and happiness...

Will you be the one I walk down the aisle with?

Hey baby, I think I wanna marry you

2011-07-05T00:00:00.003+08:00

Always looking forward to the weekends.

They may be short but they are always sweet.

Really looking forward to the end of this year...

Holiday with the bf and mummy, then his ORD and come next year,

I don't have to go to sch anymore.

I've got this crazy craving for koi now.

*slaps forehead*

You are always gonna be the best for me

Always gonna be safe and protected in your arms

2011-06-30T14:21:00.003+08:00

I love it when you do this...

The day you said "Happy April's Fool, Darling!"

The only way to not feel pain is to not care

2011-06-29T15:00:00.001+08:00

Stumbled across this somewhere.

Cherish your blessings

Never ever gonna be good enough for you

2011-06-28T01:44:00.001+08:00

Suicidal thoughts.
I think I'm going crazy.

Just tell me you love me like you did before.

When I close my eyes, you're all that I see

2011-06-23T15:10:00.006+08:00

For better or for worse.
For richer or for poorer.
In sickness and in health.
To honor and to cherish.
Forsaking all others, till death do us part.

Such simple and yet beautiful vows.
I think I'll cry the happiest tears, if you look into my eyes and promise me that.

Baby I do.

Bursting bright blissful

2011-06-21T14:54:00.003+08:00

You turn my world upside down and inside out~

More than words can say

Wild and free

2011-06-16T12:03:00.005+08:00

I kinda miss the party lifestyle.
When I would head out every weekend and you would be worried sick.
When I would go out to the clubs and you would fetch me home.

I miss that person I was back then.
When you asked.. "Do I have to get used to this new you?"
I had the courage to say "Maybe you do."

Don't know why I've lost the person I was.
Back to the weak and dependent girlfriend.
Maybe I'm just useless.

I only want to be with you

The only one, now and forever

2011-06-14T14:07:00.002+08:00

You mean the world to me.

Never gonna let you out of my sight

End of playtime

2011-06-12T16:02:00.002+08:00

Today marks the end of my holidays.
Goodbye for now my dear, I'll see you again in 2 months time.
We can then have so much fun together.

School starts tmr and there's no more breaks in between for 2 months.
I think I'm gonna die cause I can't play overnight mahjong as and when I like anymore.

Mummy has given me the money to book tickets for Bangkok in Nov.
Mad happy~ Cause love is tagging along tooooooooooooo!
Can't wait can't wait can't wait!

Okay, gotta shower and travel allllllll the wayyyyyy to Tampines to meet him for dinner now.

Blissful little souls

Panic attacks

2011-06-08T14:16:00.001+08:00

I'm so afraid.

Don't want to have to face the truth.

At my weakest

2011-06-06T17:08:00.001+08:00

Silence seems to be my loudest cry thesedays.
Can't you tell that I'm really hurt when I start ignoring you?
And when I cry, it's not just about a single issue..
It's all the built up anger and emotion that I've lost control of.

Please I beg you, stop treating me this way

You'll always be perfect for me

2011-06-01T14:27:00.004+08:00

Beauty in pain.

I hate myself and everything I've done.

你是我最珍贵

2011-05-30T12:06:00.002+08:00

Inter-locked fingers, awesomely tight hugs, strong passionate kisses.
That familiar scent, my favourite you.

You and me. Just us two, till the end

So many lies, so many times

2011-05-28T05:31:00.001+08:00

Just when I thought you've stopped lying to me..
I found another one out.
Maybe I should just keep quiet and act like a fool.
Cause that's what you seem to take me for.

Keeping the heartbreaks to myself.

Crazy bitchy paranoid

2011-05-27T18:39:00.001+08:00

Maybe I should just die.
And disappear from your life.
Things would be much better, for you.

At least you'll be happy.
And that's all that I want for you.

Drop down dead

You made my day with 3 simple words

2011-05-25T14:34:00.003+08:00

And just so you know, I love you too

I feel butterflies fluttering in my stomach, feels like happiness is saying hi to me again

I'd die for you if that's what it takes

2011-05-24T17:00:00.002+08:00

The truth is, you could stab me in my heart
And with my one last gasping breath,
I'd still apologize for bleeding on your shirt

That's how much I love you.

Don't want you to go

2011-05-20T09:40:00.001+08:00

Our relationship matters more to me than my ego.
So here I am, apologising for all that I've ever done wrong.

Love you more than anything else in this world

The greatest love causes the deepest miseries

2011-05-16T14:42:00.008+08:00

Bring us back to where it all started....

Gotta get used to things

2011-05-15T16:16:00.001+08:00

I know it has only been a few days apart.
But I swear, it feels like forever.
And I miss you so so much.

I'm gonna try the hardest to make things work one last time, cause I believe.. You are still worth the fight.
Wouldn't give up till I've done all that I can.
I know, deep down.. We will make it through.
We've done it before and we'll do it again.

Remember when you said you'll never ever let me go?
I'm holding onto that, cause it's keeping me strong.
So keep your word and don't let me down.
Love you more than you'll ever know.

Maybe, the best way to appreciate something is to be without it for awhile.

Only a dream

2011-05-11T13:11:00.001+08:00

It was so real.. So real that it actually hurt pretty damn bad when it ended.
I didn't want it to end. Didn't want any of it to be a dream.
Wanted to take back what I did and make things right..

Hate myself for being so weak. For not fighting hard enough to keep the both of you with me.
Never should have let any one of you leave me. It really was the stupidest choice I've ever made.
And now, no matter what I do.. I'll never be able to make things right.

Those dimples..

Maybe I've had enough

2011-05-09T15:29:00.001+08:00

I'm really exhausted.
Got nothing left in me to keep running after you.
I think I'm ready to give this fight up.

Will this be the end of a beautiful story?

Always has been

2011-05-09T03:46:00.001+08:00

You seem to enjoy your game more than me.
That has always been the case hasn't it?
No matter how many times we quarrel about it, and how many times you promise to never do it again..
You'll still get back to it.

It's like a drug. Your drug.
You are so stuck on it.
And when you are on it, you become oblivious to the people around you.
I hate who you become every single time you start gaming.

You get so lost in it. And forget about the things you care for.
I swear if I could smash that computer without breaking your heart, I would.
Feel so stupid to actually care about how you'll feel without your com. Seriously.

There's only so much I can take.
Any further, and i'll be out of this door.
Stop pushing me to it.
Because I will, walk out if that's what it takes.

Hate this repetition.

What happened to those promises?

2011-05-07T18:56:00.001+08:00

I hate you.
I hate you cause you broke your promise.
I hate you cause you went back on your word.

You always make me these promises when I'm mad at you.
And I stupidly believe that you're gonna keep them.
This is not the first, not the second and most definitely not the third time it has happened.

Just because I kept quiet about it, doesn't mean that I'm fine with it.
Don't take me as a fool.

I hate you and your stupid games

Extraction

2011-05-03T13:46:00.001+08:00

Alright, skipped half a day's lesson on the first day of the week.
Blah.. And it's not even a 5-day-week.
But wait, it ain't my fault.
Got a dental appointment!

Yippeeee dippeeee doooo~
Love all this reasons I've always got to get myself away from school.
Heh! Alone outside the clinic under the fucking intimidating sun.
Kinda sucks. But whatever, as long as I'm not in class..

Really looking forward to next week and the week after.. Cause after it's over, means its time for another holiday~
No school no school. Ahh shiok ahh!

I'm getting really bored here now.
Sad little soul.

Fearing the pain I'm gonna feel

Best I'll ever have

2011-05-02T22:43:00.001+08:00

Just had a really wonderful weekend.
Spent most if it with love and the rest with mahjong and friends..

It's a school day again, tmr.
So dreading it. Hate the thought of school.
I think I'm weird.
Everyone loves school and hates the working life.
But having experienced both..
I would still say I prefer work.

I just don't like being in school and being confined by all the really stupid things.
What makes it worse is that we're paying for it.
Urgh. Waste of time and money..
If it wasn't for the damn certificate, I'd be long gone.

On a side note, every other thing seems to be going sooooo well..
I can't help but be happy even though I've got school tmr.
How silly.

The best start of a new month, with you..

Best friend?

2011-04-29T11:40:00.002+08:00

I do miss you my friend.
Many times I really feel like calling you, asking you out.
Sit under my block with some beer and ciggs.
Smoke, drink, talk cock and catch up.
To complain to you about all the things that have happened to me.
And to listen to you and all your silly dreams.

But I tell myself to stop.
You made the choice to leave when I told you to stay.
Maybe you feel that he is worth much more than this friendship we have.
Whatever your reasons are, I wish you well.
I just know that I am going to hate him with all my guts when he leaves..
And you are left here all alone.

You decided to cause yourself so much pain.
I don't understand why.

I still remember the hike.. and every goddamn thing.

Crap

2011-04-27T22:35:00.001+08:00

It's only the second week of school and I've gotten sick of it.
How oh how am I gonna live through the next two months?!

Somebody, save me...

Reminiscing

2011-04-26T15:22:00.001+08:00

Lying alone on my bed.
Curled up under my blanket.
Hugging onto my pillow.

With a million other things on my mind,
The one that stands out is always you.

Don't you ever wonder, how things would be..
If we'd never met?
If we'd never gotten together?

Imagine the difference in our lives, if not for each other..
I know I would have done many things differently, and made many selfish decisions..
Because I wouldn't have to think about us.

But I'm amazed that I don't feel no resentment towards all the things I had to sacrifice or give up, for us.
It sure is weird how selfless love turns us.
And I sure am glad that till now, it all seems to be worth the while.

Just want you to know, that I love you every bit as much as I did before.

Thank you, for having me at hello. And never saying goodbye.

Picture-perfect

2011-04-21T13:38:00.008+08:00

The BKK crew!
Bestest poly-mates ever

Tuk-tuk!
Heheh. I know.. We went crazy on bras~
And food tooooo!
This was on Love's birthday

And these are my favorite girls :)

Some alone time w him..

2nd Anniversary

Little Bei-er

Most beloved Yuanyuan :)

KL holiday w Love

Missy Lang's 23rd

And the bieber concert!

Alright, that will be all for now.
Connection in school sucks, so its basically a pain in the ass to upload pics.

Will post more another day when I'm bored.

I don't wanna fight, no more...

There's only this much I can take

2011-04-19T14:25:00.001+08:00

I don't want us to fall apart.
No. I really don't.

Not gonna give up, never ever.

Aquarius women

2011-04-18T11:31:00.001+08:00

Inconsistency and confusion describe the characteristics profile of an Aquarius female. The same goes for her love life too. She is very loyal, but at the same time, she is also a little detached and not extremely emotional. She will be committed and remain faithful too, but do not try to bind her. Let her enjoy her freedom and in return, she will come back to you when she gets tired of her expeditions. Her dreams are very different from that of a normal female and she hums a different tune, which most of us have not even heard of.

An Aquarian female is like a butterfly, which sits on every flower, but belongs to none. She loves her freedom and if you can accept this, she will love you even more. Within her boundless limits, her love will also be limitless. Position and power matter to her more than money and bank balance. If you want her to fall in love with you, be true and honest, not only to others, but also to yourself. You don't need to follow her rules. You can form your own code of ethics, but be sure to live by them.

Passion is not one of the personality traits of Aquarian girl. Rather, her love will be subtle and unassuming. She is intense, but may prefer to be platonic most of the time. Hosting as well as attending parties comes naturally to her and she will always be a social delight. She will trust you completely and will not be unduly suspicious of your activities. You will also not be bothered by too much jealousy or possessiveness on her part. Her trust arises from the fact that before committing, she had dissected your behavior under a microscope.

Only after being convinced of your integrity did she take the next step. Still, if you become unfaithful to her, she will be extremely hurt and is likely to remember the wound for a long time. With an Aquarian female, out of sight means out of mind too. So, make sure to be around here always. She has a very strong will power. If she thinks the relationship is not working and has no chances of improving also, she will break it right away; though doing so may tear her heart into two pieces. Like every Aquarian, she will remember her first love throughout her life.

It's no use getting upset, better be the first love in her life. She will never ever be dishonest in a relationship and even if she indulges in an extra-marital affair, it will end before it even started. She will always try to know your deepest thoughts and secrets, but her own dreams will be beyond your reach. Conversing with an Aquarian female is usually a delight because of her charming manners. Her mind is quite unpredictable and you will find it hard keeping track. She will live in the present, then suddenly be wistful about yesterday and then, become enthusiastic about tomorrow.

She may talk about fairies one day and discard elves as humbug, the other. Never look down on her or she might never look upto you. She respects you and will expect the same in return. As mothers, Aquarian women tend to be very loving and caring. Though in the beginning, they may be a little nervous about the whole idea of motherhood. But once they become comfortable with it, it will come to them naturally. An Aquarius female may find it difficult to express her love in the form of hugs and kisses and you will have to teach her that. She will never overburden the kids with protection.

At the same time, she will always be a patient listener to their childhood and adolescent problems. Teaching them discipline will also be your responsibility. However, for all this to happen you will have to convince her to get married and this certainly isn't an easy job. You will also have to teach her romance, since expressing emotions does not come too easily to her. She will happily hold your hand and walk besides you, but don't expect her to gaze into your eyes for hours at a stretch.

Don't smother your Aquarian girl with too much closeness, she needs her space and will give you, yours too. Things like suspicion, possessiveness, chauvinism and criticism turn her off. Just be nice to her odd bunch of friends and she will warmly welcome yours into the house. Make use of her intuition and insight, it may help you in solving a problem or two. It may seem like wishful thinking now, but then, remember she looks in the future. Hold her hand and she will let you see the future too, where both of you are cozily living together

Change

2011-04-14T11:32:00.001+08:00

To be honest, I'm quite afraid of changes.
I like challenges and stuff but I don't like it when I've got to adapt to a new environment after being too comfy in one for a long time.

Finally decided to leave menu pte ltd. after 2 and a half years.
I know it's time for a change. Cause I've been there too long and have started getting too used to everything and everyone.

I know, changes are good.
That they help me grow and all..
But the idea of blending into a whole new place kinda scares me a little too much.

One thing is for sure, I'm gonna miss both cafe iguana and Brewerkz plenty.

Well. Since I've made up my mind to leave, I don't wanna look back and regret.
Gonna have to look for a new place to start from scratch all over again.
Scary much I would say.

On a side note.. School is starting in a few days time.
No more holiday and idling around anymore.
Ahhh. I dont wanna go back to a routine of school, work and sleep.

And yes I have to admit. I've started to miss the place already.
A little too soon, I know.
Blame myself. Backside itchy, stupid pride and ego.
Feel so lost now that I do not have a job after working for so long.
Argh.

One door has closed, but I know many more are gonna be opened for me

Sweet surprise

2011-04-08T04:25:00.001+08:00

Really love the little things that you do for me.
They never fail to cheer me up.
I can see a change, a positive one in fact.. And I'm really happy about it

You have slowly started noticing the smaller details which I used to have to remind you about..
Have starting taking note and actually really remembering the things I say..
So many small little changes, well I can only say.. That I'm so proud of you.
And of us.

Thank you love. For not giving up on us. Ever.

Going on, going strong

2011-04-04T22:38:00.001+08:00

Oh no. Holidays seem to be coming to an end alr.
Last 2 weeks left.. Then it's time to head back to schoooooool :(
Cannot mahjong all day and night.
Cannot party all night long.
No more life other than school and work.

My life seems to be getting a little boring..
Not because I'm not having fun with the things I do and people around.
But because it feels like its becoming a routine.
Oh well. At least everything is going smoothly.

I'm a happy kid.

Love the way you hold me close.

Baby please don't go

2011-03-25T14:07:00.001+08:00

He seems to be mad at me :(

And I don't know the reason why

Something somewhere

2011-03-18T09:24:00.001+08:00

Feels weird.
You are being distant.
As though its on purpose.

What did I do wrong this time?
Where are we going wrong?

You told me you weren't gonna leave

Trust Issues

2011-03-16T19:18:00.001+08:00

Please don't let anything be wrong with us.
I've been so happy recently, I forgot how it felt like to be sad.
Nothing is gonna go wrong this time cause I'm gonna fight to keep you here.
Right here, with me.

Don't you ever give up.

As we go on

2011-03-10T17:38:00.001+08:00

Will we be able to remember all the wonderful things that has happened to us?
What if one day you woke up, and everything seems different?
Who will you be searching for?

I love taking tons of photos everytime I head out with my friends..
Special occasion or not, I've got this urge to capture it all on my camera..
Because I'm so afraid one day I'll wake up not remembering who I am.
And forgetting all those who matters so much to me.

As I grow older.. I think I've really learnt to treasure the people around me.
And I know I would never ever want to forget any single one who has been here and touched me in any way.

No idea why I'm saying all this now.
Must be the before-work emo emo thing going on.
*slaps forehead*

I would never give up on you, so don't ever give up on us

So fucking perfect

2011-03-07T16:03:00.001+08:00

Guess what. I'm on the train heading to work now
Kinda sucky after sucha long break..
My uniform is all dusty and smelling from sitting too long in my wardrobe..

If only I wasn't so broke now.. Then I could be happily watching tv at home
Not dragging my feet to work.

This holiday is becoming really boring because everyone is having their attachments..
No one is free to mahjong with me anymore!
Oh my god. Just the thought of it is so depressing..

Please, let the first day back to work be a good one.
Monday is really such a bluey day.
Can't wait for the weekend to be here already.

I can't be that perfect.

Back to reality

2011-03-04T11:02:00.001+08:00

Well well well, back in Singapore now..
And that means I've gotta get back to work.
Oh myyyyy god. After an entire week of carefree shopping and eating and sleeping.. It feels kinda sucky to be back home.

No more waking up and heading down to pratunam for food..
No more walking to platinum mall for shopping..
No more going to khaosan for omelette and clubbing..
No more going to rachada for the most awesome chicky wings..
No more awesome tomyum soup just 5 mins away..
And no more of my Fav phad Thai!!!!!

So depressing. So so depressing.
I wanna go back to Thailand again.
I wanna go around playing and talking so loud like nobody's business..
I wanna squeeze on the tuk-tuk with 5 of my friends again!
Grrrrrr.

Gotta start planning for my next holiday soon.
Heheh!

Feels good to wake up with you by my side.

Happy holidays- In Bangkok

2011-03-02T15:00:00.001+08:00

I'm still in Bkk right now..
Been shopping like mad the past few days~
Gonna return to sg tmr :(
No more money to shop alr.
Grrr. See you all when I'm back..

Xoxo

Land of smiles

2011-02-24T09:12:00.001+08:00

Gonna leave for Bangkok, Thailand in a few hours time.
Just finished with all the last minute packing of luggage and all.
Really excited now. First time overseas without mummy, boyfriend or school.
Like.. There's not gonna be anyone responsible in watching over me.

That's kinda scary, considering the riotings going on right in the capital which is where I'm headed for.
Oh well. Brush it off. Don't let it dampen my mood..
I'm gonna go crazy shopping there.
Been waiting so long to just buy buy buy everything..

On the down side. I'm gonna be super broke once I'm back. Like really broke.
Need to go back to work, like a dog.
Ha, that's just life. Really Sucky.

Shall update when I can.. Till then!

Im gonna miss you like there's no tomorrow

Long awaited!

2011-02-21T09:27:00.001+08:00

It's officially the end of year two!
Yipeeee~
I'm so happy, I can't stop smiling..
Finally over and done with yet another year.

I can hear platinum mall, khaosan and Siam square calling me!
Oh please let the riotings rest a little.
Just take a one week break starting Thursday.
Let me enjoy my holiday in Bangkok...

Mummy is worried sick.. She keeps persuading me to drop my plans.
To the extent of what'sapping me images of news reports!
Ahhhh. I need this break so bad.
Stop fighting just for awhile my dears!

Oh well. Gonna sleep now.
Have got plans for dinner and mj tonight~

Happiness much (:

H is for Holiday

2011-02-19T05:59:00.001+08:00

Down to the very last paper due on Monday.
Happiness much~
Cause it's time for Bkk & some hardcore partying once I'm done with it.

Oh no. After all the partying I'll be so broke, I'll have to get back to working my ass off again :(
Haiyo. Why can't money grow on trees? Or fall from the sky? Or multiply like bacteria.. or appear out of the blue.. Or just constantly fill my pocket?!?!?!!

Love is so greedy. He says if I don't buy things for him, I no need to come back to Sg.
So mean so mean so mean laaaa!
I think I'll spend a bomb there, again..
Oh my. Will some good samaritan please "accidentally" transfer money into my account? Pretty pretty please~

Slap me in the face, haha.
I know I'm dreaming, but what the hell..
Dreams do come true, right? ;)

Just hold on to this. Hold on to us.

Where's my El Charro?

2011-02-16T02:57:00.004+08:00

I need some tequila, its been too long.
My body is running dry without it.

Need to feel the high soon.

Like a tape on rewind

2011-02-14T03:06:00.002+08:00

All this and you, still means everything to me.
Question is whether or not this is all still worth the fight?

Is it really part of loving, to learn to let go?

Where is the love?

2011-02-14T01:41:00.002+08:00

Felt like someone just stabbed me in my heart.
I can't decide and don't know what to do anymore.

This feels like I'm drowning without anyone knowing
Its not the fear and panic I am going through right now..
Its those very last moments before it ends.
The part where I can't feel anything anymore.
Just numbness taking over. The lost of control.

I would usually burst into tears.
But now, nothing is coming out cause I can't feel a thing
Too used to all of this, too used to all this pain.
All that's left is this funny feeling in my heart, something I can't put a finger on...

Happy Valentine's, Indeed.

I'm all about you

2011-02-07T23:52:00.002+08:00

I think I'm so screwed.
Skipped so many days of school during the most crucial part.
UT 3 is almost here. And frankly speaking, I'm all ready... to flunk it.
Screw myself.

Mummy and that little fatty is in Langkawi now while I'm stuck at here in Sg with school and exams.
How unfair!
Oh well, on a brighter note.. Dinner this Saturday on my Greatgrand Uncle's yacht, yay!

Ahhh. I've got Marcoecons paper a day after Valentines! What the hell.
Stupid school. Stupid stupid school.
Can't wait till the holidays are here. I need to fly off to BKK really soon or I'll go mad.
Money money, please fall from the sky.
Or let me strike 4D/Toto, no need first prize. Just a couple of hundred bucks would do fine.

Put a bullet in my head right now, please

Do you remember?

2011-02-05T13:48:00.001+08:00

Isn't cny all about spending time with your loved ones?

Breaking point

When a heart breaks, it doesn't break even

2011-02-02T03:31:00.001+08:00

Can't feel you here with me.
Where are you now, when I need you the most?

Things are changing.. Again

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

2011-01-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

Was watching American Idol earlier on.
There's this one story, this one guy who touched many
-Chris Medina

Two years ago Medina proposed to his girlfriend of eight years, Juliana Ramos.
2 months short of their wedding however, she got into a car accident which left her with a traumatic brain injury and was in a coma which the doctors didn't think she would wake from.

She did though and Medina stood by her side, helping to take care of his love and wearing her engagement ring on a chain around his neck. In front of the judges he sang, Breakeven by the Script, an emotional song with lyrics about heartbreak. During his audition package, Medina explained of his dedication to Ramos, "What kind of guy would I be if I walked out when she needed me the most?"

The judges were clearly inspired by his story and asked to meet Ramos. Steven Tyler seemed particulary moved and gave the wheelchair bound Juliana a hug and a kiss before telling Chris Medina that he was going through to Hollywood. "I just heard your fiance sing and he is so good" Tyler said to Ramos, "You know 'cause he sings to you all the time. I could tell. That's why he sings so good, because he sings to you"

That short clip, those few minutes showed me what love can do.
Something so pure and so true. It was beautiful, really.
God bless them both.

Moved to tears.

小天使

2011-01-26T11:43:00.002+08:00

Been on MC for many many days.
And now, I'm back in school.
Super don't like this feeling.. I miss staying at home.
I wanna watch Top Chef, Biggest Loser, Britan's Next Top Model, Survivor and Losing it with Jillian.
I don't wanna be in school.

Take me away.

I miss how we were

2011-01-20T11:38:00.003+08:00

Not feeling very well recently.

School is a bitch. Work has been put on hold.

I'm so freaking tired of feeling like this.

Someone just put a bullet straight through my head, please.

Hate this awful feeling of being sick, of feeling tired all the time.

I wanna get well, don't wanna keep being like this.

So annoying. So irritating.

Tickets for Bangkok booked~

Gonna go have a blast with Priscilla, Fiona, Shuyu, Eugene & Shuyu's friend.

Yummy yummy fun.

I'm going to go mad shopping shopping and shopping~~~

Oh! & My pretty faci just bought the entire class lollipops!

I'm feeling better now (:

If I was still a kid, this lollipop would have made my entire day

So alone

2011-01-12T20:13:00.003+08:00

Am I where the problem lies?
Is there something really wrong with me?

Do I seem crazy to you?

In a mess

2011-01-12T15:43:00.003+08:00

Feeling all lost and confused.
Tell me now, will this be the right decision?

Baby, I'm so sorry

Super blue Monday.

2011-01-10T12:55:00.004+08:00

Newest addition to my body *Yums*

Rainy monday morning, bad way to start the week.

I'm going to partial, not gonna stay in class.

Its my dear Ziwei's birthday and we're going out for a candlelight lunch.

Shall turn this awful morning into a wonderful day.

I miss the way things were

Brand New Year

2011-01-05T08:45:00.003+08:00

Considering the fact that I'm an RP student, the new year can never be great.
Thanks to my wonderful school for always having to start on the 3rd of Jan.
How nice, if we had one more week.. Just like the other polytechnics.

Busy bee this year. Too many things to do, too many places to be at.
And always, too little time to get them all complete.
How quick time flies by huh, first week of the new year is almost ending..
Seems like its gonna be one helluva year..

Oh well. Many have asked, "What's your new year resolution for 2011?"
Honestly, it flew by a little too quick that I didn't have time to think.
I'm in a brand new year, without a resolution.
But wait, that's bullshit. I can have a resolution anytime I want to.
Why wait till its the new year to decide?

On a side note. I'm really unhappy about my coming birthday this year.
Got a stupid Batam school trip right on the weekend where I'm supposed to be out partying.
How sweet of them. Seriously? Of all weekends, it has to fall on the one right before my birthday.
Curse curse curse like mad. Its my very last year being a teen.
Its the one last year right before I hit the TWENTIES.
I told mummy, BUY 4D ALSO NOT SO HENG! And all she did was laugh. Pffttt!

Enough of rantings for one morning.
Gonna go for lessons now.. *Wednesday Blues*

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Final chance, make it work.

This is the end

2010-12-31T05:42:00.003+08:00

Can't really believe this year is gonna end just like that.
Wow.

End of yet another year.
Its gonna be helluva fun at work later on with all my sissies~

I'll never leave you alone

This festive season...

2010-12-29T18:58:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas and A very Happy New Year to everyone! ;)

I just want to have a happy happy New Year.

So near yet so far

2010-12-16T14:35:00.002+08:00

Can't seem to feel what I felt before.
I miss the times when we would just lie in bed and talk the night through.

Just the way we were

Growing distance

2010-12-15T10:51:00.003+08:00

Feels so strange, so distant.
I thought you were different.
I thought for once, things were going to be different.

Its like I'm blindfolded, on a roller coaster ride.
I can feel it reaching the peak, I just don't know when it would fall.
I don't know how fast or how steep I'm going to fall this time round.

How many times can my heart withstand breaking?
How many times can you break someone's heart?
How many times is too many times?

But darling, I'll still jump infront of a train for you.

Are you one in a million?

2010-12-14T04:13:00.002+08:00

Everything is changing but I'm still the same.
I keep running.
But when I stop and turn, would you still be there?

To give me all your love, is all I'll ever ask.
What you don't understand is, I would go through all of this pain
Take a bullet straight through my head, yes I would die for you baby
Would you do the same?

Should have known you were trouble from the first kiss.

Messy messy feelings

2010-11-29T13:09:00.002+08:00

Don't know why I'm feeling this way.
So wrong but so right.
Things are just different with us.
They don't feel like how they used to anymore.
Its like something somewhere somehow just changed along the way.

This time round, I'm running and you're giving chase.
No idea how far I'd be able to run.
Or how deep I'd be able to hide.
For now, I just wanna snuggle warm and comfy somewhere else.
Somewhere I know I'll be safe and happy.

Do you feel the distance between us?
I can see you trying, I can feel you trying.
But its like, it just ain't enough.
After all you've put me through, don't you think you should do more?

I think I'm starting to become a self-centered bitch.
I think I'm starting to learn how to love myself first.
I think I'm starting to not put you as my priority.
I think I'm starting to want to be loved instead.

You've never realised that there are many people who cares for me.
You always think that no one would bother about me if you didn't.
But babe, you are so wrong. So so wrong.
Its really up till recently that, I myself noticed, many are there for me.

Its only this recent times that I realised, I really have got lots of friends who worries for me.
Who has always been there, just never dared to show.
And now I know, they are the people I can count on anytime.
Are you able to do that for me?

I don't know what I want anymore.
Maybe its because I don't know what to expect of us anymore.

Fallen a little deeper than I knew I should

Yucky Macdonalds Breakfast!

2010-11-29T09:33:00.003+08:00

Cockroach in the white circle above

Tadaaa~ Gross or what.

THERE WAS 2 COCKROACHES IN THE DAMN RESTAURANT.

MACDONALDS, CAUSEWAY POINT (BASEMENT)

STUPID ANNOYING PLACE.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Not gonna talk about it here.

Such a turn off.

The pictures will cause my pretty blog to rot.

I'm tired. I'm sick.

BUT I'M FEELING SO SUPER HYPER!

More than I should.

You're the best I've ever had

2010-11-24T00:08:00.003+08:00

I guess somehow, we both know that its not exactly a question about having a lack of choices.
Its pretty much only a matter of time before one of us stumbles across that person who would make our world magic again.
The one person that would make our hearts skip a beat from the slightest sound of the phone.

I know I might meet someone who doesn't have that need of playing games and instead of following his friends, simply follows his heart.
Someone who would make me want to look past all the times I've been hurt and feel like its actually worth risking everthing again.
Someone who would make me want to fight my fears of opening up, just so that I can let him in because the thought of him not knowing me completely is far worse than my fear of rejection.

You know, that kinda guy who would sigh at my stupid jokes and the way I tend to be so clumsy and silly, but deep down he'll love it because love is not about accepting each other's flaws, it's about loving them as they make us who we are.
Somebody for whom I am prepared not just to show the strong, independent side of me that the rest of the world knows, but also the insercurities that would wake me up in the middle of the night crying just cause I'm sick of hurting any further.

He would not be able to give me my confidence back or make me love myself again, but that's alright because I have no need for a knight in shinning armour who would save me.
Instead, I know he would make me feel complete, in a way no one has done before and together we would get struck by love so hard that nothing will ever be the same again.
You see, I know he is out there and I know I shouldn't stop till I find him, cause I deserve nothing less than to love someone who loves me back.
Who knows, he might just be somewhere around the corner once I walk out of this door.

The only thing is...
With all my heart, I still wish that someone is you.

Will you please fight for me like how I did for you?

Caught in-between

2010-11-22T00:30:00.004+08:00

How did we end up this way? So distant, so far apart.
It was never like this before.
My nights are spent sleepless, high or not.
I can't stop thinking, where did we go wrong?

Everyone tells me, its time to let go
All the people say, its time to move on
But who am I to trust, them or myself
I keep telling myself, you deserve one more chance
To prove me wrong, to make things work
Because I know, I'm not ready to go

At the same time, I'm afraid to stay
Because I know one day, you'll bring me more pain
You'll let me fall all by myself and stand by the side to watch me cry
There is so much more we have yet to do
So much more we said we would do
Tell me now, will they come true?

When the night gets quiet and the wind starts blowing
The first person I think of is you
I miss the way you irritate me, miss the way you laugh

It has not been easy, trying to live without you
Guess its like a habbit, so hard to kick
I wanna dial your number, I wanna hear your voice
But I keep telling myself, I shouldn't fall again

No, not for someone who doesn't love me just the way I am
not for someone who doesn't love me just the way I am
not for someone who doesn't love me just the way I am
not for someone who doesn't love me just the way I am

Close to 20 months baby. I don't know how long more I'll be able to hold on
Its time, for you to do the chasing
Because I am tired of running after you

I need you here, to wipe my tears off my cheeks

Party all night long

2010-11-18T15:38:00.003+08:00

Bridget's Bday

Dinner at Brewerkz on 7th Nov plus drinking session @ Iguana thereafter.

Awesome night.

2nd Drinking session was 16th Nov.

Dinner @ Brewerkz Indoor Stadium & drinking session yet again.

Super sky high nights

Just way toooo awesome, love these people~

UT just ended. 3rd one down..

1 more for tmr and next week, MACROECONSSSSS. Gg.com

Ahhh. I don't wanna study laaa.

Stupid awful place filled with awesome people.

Hate it so much.

I don't know what to do with us anymore

Messed up

2010-11-15T23:47:00.002+08:00

I never realised that tweet tweet was so fun.
Its so fun that I'm neglecting you little bloggie and my dear fb account.
Tweet tweet is like my extra marital affair. So yummy~

Cheffy UT tmr. Veggie cutting, Stocks and Sauces.
Goodluck to me.
Thank god there's no open flames in the kitchen..
Or else, I think the school need to raise more money to rebuilt it.

Heading out tmr after UT with my dear dear friends.
Those super cock-screwed-sluts, ya. They are my friends.
Kinda really like this new class that I have.
Lots of alcoholics and clubbers. Like a shiok only.

Oh man. I don't wanna go for UT laaaaa.
Fuck.

Am I falling way too deep?

Just the way we were

2010-11-07T04:18:00.002+08:00

Whenever you smile, I'll stop and stare for awhile.
Because that's one thing about you, that hasn't changed.

Sometimes, when I watch you sleep..
I ask myself how one person can change so much, within such a short time.
And then I'll move close to your chest and listen to that familiar beat.
I'd then hold your hand and reassure myself, that you are the same person I fell in love with.

But then again, sometimes when we fight..
I ask myself why the hell do I put up with all this for so long.
And right before I pack up and leave, you'll melt my heart again.
I'd close my eyes, calm myself down and fall in love with you all over from the start.

You make me feel stupid.
But honestly, if I am not willing to sound stupid, I don't think I deserve to be in love.

Cause babe, there's not a thing that I would change

Pain.

2010-11-02T15:53:00.003+08:00

I want to get another tattoo.

Soon.

I.Want.To.Feel.The.Pain

I miss the needle pricking through my skin

Not so patient anymore

2010-10-31T22:39:00.005+08:00

I am so annoyed now.

So fucking annoyed, seriously.

If I could smash that damn laptop, I would.

You asked me to stayover and you play dota.

How fucking sweet of you.

I am pissed to the max max maxxxxxxxxx.

Happy 1 year and 7 months indeed.

Sucha Love!

2010-10-26T09:25:00.002+08:00

Been staying over at baby's place pretty often for the past week.
School and weeds is making me so tired!

Haha. Okay, that sounded wrong.
Weeds is a drama series that I'm currently watching.
Its not like I'm doing weeds, weeds.

Have been working on Saturday mornings for quite a few weeks now.
Sucks you know. 6 days a week, I've got to be up by 9am at the latest.
Hate it so much. I love sleeping, but I got not much time to sleep.
So annoying.

I'm feeling whiney and grumpy today.
Not enough sleep. For 2 nights I've had 6 hours of sleep in total.
How on earth can that be enough.
I'm crazy. I'm feeling crazily tired.

Ahhhh. I wanna go holiday.
Go shopping. Go massage. Go sit on some wild roller coaster ride and scream my lungs out.

I WANT TO MARRY A RICH DYING OLD MAN LAAAAAAAAA.
(In my dreams, I know)

Sweetest you.

Pong!

2010-10-21T16:31:00.001+08:00

My fingers suddenly itch like mad.
I think i really need to mahjong soon.

Damn addictions.

Misery

2010-10-19T22:11:00.004+08:00

Its the first day of the second week of school.

That's 8th day since school has started.

And guess what, I've not had any alcohol for 8 days.

Suddenly, I crave for golden ale and buffalo wings and oreo ice cream cake and....

Been so busy because of school and work that when I get home at night,

I fall asleep with my hair still wet.

Getting headaches and flu due to the lack of sleep and the stupid haze.

Oh my god.. Holiday is still 2 months away.

Somebody just kill me please.

Oh, or get me a new cammy! HAHAHA

Too tired to think, too busy to feel.

Extremely sad

2010-10-19T00:33:00.003+08:00

Would a good samaritan buy me a new cammy please?
I will so so sooooooooo love you with all my heart.
Life is so miserable and meaningless now that my darling cammy has become a crippled.

Ahhhh... This is worse than not having beer, than not playing mahjong, than not being able to go out, than having to work and see rita's face, than cockroaches flying infront of me, than forcing a carrot down my throat, than making me eat pig livers...........
CRAPPPPPP.

I feel like I'm going to crumble and fall apart and cry and cry and cry until cammy is fine or a new one comes along.

Dear baby cammy, please hurry and recover. I miss you like mad!!!!!!!

Something ain't right

2010-10-13T11:33:00.002+08:00

There seems to be a problem with my cammy's screen!
Urgh..... Gotta send it for servicing.
Headache lahhhhh. I'm so upset nowwww.

School has started. Thank god, my classmates are nice.
& there still is a lot of familiar faces here.

Please stop hiding things from me.

One last chance

2010-10-11T12:57:00.001+08:00

Make it or break it.

Quit playing games with my heart.